My ultimate dilemma in life, so far, has been how hard I pressure myself to measure up to everyone I meet. It's a multi faceted dilemma, but the two most prominent points are, one, my infatuation with life and accomplishments in general, and two, my unwavering inner passion to be so much better than everyone I've ever met, (no offense to anyone reading.)
I'll give you an example. In my current internship I've met some interesting people. I've had the chance to meet a few celebrities, chefs, publicists, etc. When I meet these types of people, the first thing my head generates is "How can I do all those things and still do my life?" That's how I've been for years and years. When I was 15 I saw a girl who wrote a book at the age of 16. I spent the next few months trying to get to that same goal, even though I had never thought about it before. I am infatuated with doing all that I possibly can--I'm still working on that book.
The second part of my dilemma is the need to be better. I'll be honest. I'm interning at Fox 5 right now and every time I see an intern, it's like the wild wild west. I'll walk you through it. I'm over chilling with Joy and Jan, the guest coordinators for Good Day Atlanta, learning and all that jazz, and all of the sudden, the room is still. My eyes scan the room and meet with the eyes of another intern. She's over in the corner, shadowing some guy the higher ups send you to when there's not too much to do. It's as if the room is quiet when our eyes meet. I can faintly hear Jan and Joy joking about something and the distinct sound of typing--but all else is still when our eyes meet. Maybe for the other intern it's merely accidental eye contact, but for me, it's a war. I'm so competitive and it goes into every area of my life.


I have to be the youngest, fastest, best, and the best looking too.

So my biggest strength doubles as my biggest dilemma. I love it either way though. There is something about people and human behavior, and accomplishments that fascinates me, and keeps me moving forward. One of my biggest fears is the universal truth that we only have this one lifetime to make it all happen, and accomplish all we can. So, I'll give you fair warning, my hand is always on my hip. Maybe I'll never do what you or those others have done. Maybe I'll never be president, or direct a movie, but I will move mountains in everything I do take on. And chances are that, after careful consideration of our lives and our similarities and differences, we will end up beside each other, instead of face to face. That's what life is really about, pushing the limit to make the whole thing better.